Friday, 30 January 2009
Today for Show and Tell I am showing a vase that I got about 7 years ago. It is a Poole pottery purse vase - the design is called Odyssey, and stands about 12 inches tall. It really is quite a big heavy piece of pottery. I adore it because of the very vibrant colours and lovely sheen off the the surface. I am not really an ornamants or vases person, but this one had caught my eye many times in a John Lewis department store when I lived in St Albans - a whole lifetime ago!!! :)
It would never have occurred to me to buy it - I had no need for it, and anyway, had I had the money I would have probably been spending it in the book department instead! But having seen it so many times it really stuck in my head. Then, unexpectedly, the company I worked for at the time gave everyone some John Lewis gift vouchers as a Christmas present following a good financial year. I felt as if this was serendipity and just blew the whole lot on the vase!
Immediately afterwards I panicked at having spent so much on something that was going to be no use to me at all, but I have always loved it, and grow to love it more as time passes, so I don't believe it was a waste. Some day Baby Kay will have it I hope and enjoy her Mother's outrageous splurge in the China department!
Thanks for looking!
Wednesday, 28 January 2009
You had great fun with Nanny. That's the great thing about going up there, Nanny has made sure she has nothing to do all day so that she can spend the whole time playing with you. When I was very small, about your age, Nanny tells me that I also was not a very cuddly, kissy baby - but the one thing I would do is sit on someones knee if they had a book to read. Your Nanny started a lifetime passion of reading very early in me, and looks very like she is going to do the same with you! You were very happy with reading the same one over and over again, and pointing at the little pictures with her. I think it made both your day!
Daddy is still away this evening - he slept very badly last night he tells me. The hotel room overlooks the street and he is a very light sleeper - so he is tired and has had a busy day in the office. If he is reading this, I hope he knows we are sending him all our love tonight as always - and that when he gets home on Friday we will have a great weekend together - back under the same roof. Goodnight Darling Baby Kay, Goodnight my darling Husband - we love and miss you x
Tuesday, 27 January 2009
You are well over your snuffles and back to your wee self again. We had Jo Jingles today and there are some new Mummies and Babies so we are back up to a class of 8 again. Your favourite part is still doing the Fancy Dance, and the quiet time before the end with the bubbles. Once you get crawling or toddling, sweetie, a whole new world will open up to you, for you are just raring to go when the music starts - if you could just work out how!
After lunch today you had some strawberries. They aren't in season so I was a bit worried they would be too tart, but you had great fun with the wee pieces - that's another different fruit you have tried. You are such a delight to feed - I hope it continues when you are feeding yourself and you'll still be prepared to give new things a go! You had your bath and bottle and have gone down to sleep happy and rosy-cheeked in one of your new sleepsuits. I have unpacked some of the next size up ones we got when you were born, so you have a bit more room to wriggle!
I have settled down for an hour to catch up on some emails now with my cup of tea - and will be joining you very soon upstairs in bed for an early night. We have a busy day tomorrow - we are heading up to Carrickfergus to see Nanny for lunch which will be great fun for you (providing you doze in the car - fingers crossed!) I have posted a link for Carrickfergus for Lisa - because she astonished me in an email yesterday by telling me that her Dad's neighbour is a retired Presbyterian Minister from Carrickfergus - where I grew up and lived for many years, and where Nanny and Granda still live! Such a small world!
I hope that Daddy is getting on fine in Barcelona - and that if he is reading this he knows how much we love and miss him. I hope he isn't working too hard, and that he gets on well in his meetings tomorrow. He is never far from my thoughts, and I know you will be so excited to see him when he gets home, precious Darling. Only 3 more sleeps x x x
Monday, 26 January 2009
1 - You love labels - of any description. You can find the smallest label on the most complicated toy or piece of clothing, and once you have carefully examined it you give it a good suck and chew to be sure that you have tested it fully. Even the same toy time after time - you turn it over and around just to be sure it hasn't changed since the last time you checked it. This picture is of you with a lovely wee rag doll that J&J sent you for Christmas. Her label is actually underneath her clothes - you have to work her top up and untuck her skirt to find it, but it didn't beat you! Fortunately she is machine washable!
2 - The TV remote control is the best thing ever invented. We have a spare one that you can 'turn off' which you used to be fooled by, and would happily have pushed the buttons on but you know that the 'good one' ie the one you aren't allowed to play with, is the one you really want, and you'll make a grab for it anytime it's in stretching distance and we haven't noticed you heading in that general direction. The same is true of the spare telephone handset that Nanny has for you - you look at it, then at Nanny, and then back to the handset as much as to say 'But sure, there's no batteries in this Nanny!'
3 - Playing with the car keys - this fixes everything! Every tear dries up, every shout stops! You can even recognise the noise of them in my handbag if they are jiggling around.
4 - Mandarin oranges and Clementines - you eat these up like there is no tomorrow! I bite the wee segments in half so they are small enough for you to manage and you love squashing them around and gobbling them up!
5 - The weather forecast! No matter what is happening in the house, no matter what you are doing, no matter what toy you have (even the car keys....) EVERYTHING stops when the weather forecast comes on. And I have no idea why!! There is no jingle music for it, it doesn't matter what channel it's on (you don't seem to have a favourite presenter!) but once the weather map appears you are hooked for 30 seconds. You are definitely British my darling - already obsessed with the weather!!
Sunday, 25 January 2009
Saturday, 24 January 2009
Daddy is not home this evening - but you had a great time this morning when we were out shopping. He carried you instead of putting you in your pram, so you could see what was going on and he could keep you close and safe, and make sure you weren't uncomfortable. You are his little princess and he is so clearly your hero!
I have read a quote on another blog - the lovely Becky - and it has made me think about this deeply this evening. My Faith is not all is should be little darling - I have felt at a cross-roads for a few months, that I cannot explain, nor reconcile. But the gorgeous quote and sentiment on Becky's blog has reminded me of the man who's Faith is strong, and who looks after the both of us. He is both our hero - and I think that is a good place to try and start re-focusing myself, and remember all he does for us. Sweet dreams, little darling x
Friday, 23 January 2009
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
L is a wonderful person - Baby N is her second little boy and she is a real example of a calm, happy homemaker. We had a great lunch - talking about nursing, weaning, other babies, working, homemaking, crafts - the time just whizzed past. She made the most wonderful lentil curry soup, and then berry crumble for pudding, both of which you tried and loved! And you played happily on the floor with Baby N, just glancing over every now and then to see if I was still there!
L's home is a lovely, warm place too, with lots of pictures and photos around the walls, and things to look at. I have come home this evening with renewed vigour for putting up some more of our pictures and maybe being a little less rigid on the 'no-clutter' approach to homemaking. I think that sometimes I walk along the wrong edge of the minimilist line when it comes to home decorating!! Having nice things out needn't mean the house coming down with clutter! I need to leave the accountant behind and embrace the homemaker in me a little more. And I can start with something simple - finally getting curtains for the dining room and sitting room!
Monday, 19 January 2009
Sunday, 18 January 2009
My flight out on Friday night was delayed 2 hours which was a pain, but I got there in the end. R picked me up in Birmingham to drive to their house. It was lovely and warm inside, on such a cold and windy night - and we had a late supper before bed. I can't get over how tiny M is compared to you. He was 9 weeks old on Saturday and is so wee by comparison, now that you are becoming quite the big girl! The amazing thing is he is 8lbs 5ozs in weight, and you were 8lbs 30zs when you were born. I was looking at him and thinking simultaneously - 'How little he is' and 'How on earth did I ever push a little person that size out!!!' I suppose size is all relative, but I am so conscious of how fast you are growing, and to enjoy all that we have while we have it.
We went out for lunch on Saturday, and spent the rest of the day just relaxing. It was lovely to have some more time with Auntie C and find out how things have been going for her over the last few weeks. She and R seem to be coping incredibly well with all the changes a new little person brings with them. Like most new parents they wouldn't say no to a little more sleep, but M is feeding and sleeping well for them, and they are starting to get back to a sense of normality. It was great to feed and cuddle such a tiny little one too. Now that everything is so new and exciting to you, Baby Kay, it is very tricky getting you to sit still long enough to get a cuddle before your attention is taken with something else - and a kiss is a real priviledge that has to be sneaked when you aren't paying attention, and don't manage to get your hand in to block it!! Little M is currently still quite happy to lie in your arms and be kissed and cuddled as long as you like!
Coming home was great - even if the landing was rather hairy! Coming down into Belfast City Airport, up the Lough and over the houses, there was quite a stiff breeze and rather a lot of tipping left to right onboard. There were a few bumps onto the tarmac before we stopped, and I was glad I skipped breakfast, as I felt a bit green!
Now that I am home it is business as usual! The washing machine is going, I am planning what needs to be done for the week ahead and Daddy is relaxing after his weekend flying solo with his girl! You had a great time together - I am pretty sure you didn't even notice I was gone. But you were very calm and patient with me when I was trying to clean your nose after the bath - so maybe you do know that this is a return to normal, and deep down maybe you did notice, and are glad to have us all back under the same roof.
Am very much looking forward to kissing you goodnight my darling, and then getting into our own bed again. It is so easy to take these things for granted, but tonight I will be so grateful to be doing them once more. Sweet dreams, little darling x
Friday, 16 January 2009
Thursday, 15 January 2009
Q: What songs … either specific songs, or songs in general by a specific group or writer … have words that you love?
A: My answer to this question would probably be different had I answered this question 5 years ago, and 10 years ago, and 15 years ago. My taste in music doesn't ever seem to change, but it grows broader and more inclusive as I get older. I do sometimes listen to the radio in the car, and I hear my Dad's voice come out of my mouth when I tell my husband, 'Now, that is not music - that is just noise....' when something very modern comes on. But equally I love some really strange contemporary things too, so there is just no telling.
I love songs that make you want to jump around and dance, really upbeat things that you can sing along too loudly, and badly, and watch your little face in bewilderment at all the unfolding nonsense! But lyrics that touch you are something else indeed.
The singer and songs that most speak to me now are ones that I only started to listen to about 2 years ago. Daddy introduced me to Joni Mitchell, and I sometimes have a wee quiet cry in the car when one of her songs come on (more so when I was pregnant and overflowing with all the hormones Mother Nature was pumping round my system, gotta love the way you become the Mother of all Living when your baby is dancing along to the music in your belly!) Her voice is so poignant, and her lyrics so affecting. The ones which really do it for me are:-
These are from 'A Case of You' - and I actually have a version of Brian Kennedy singing this (from years ago) which I loved, before I realised it wasn't his song. I will play both to you when you are older and you can choose your favourite, sweetie.
And the other one that makes me cry without fail is from 'Little Green' - another one that blows the pregnant mind. I think I remember reading that Joni Mitchell wrote this for her little girl, who she had secretly while at college and had adopted without telling anyone. They were later reunited when her daughter was older, but having had a daughter of my own hearing this song reduces me to sobs as soon as it starts, just thinking about what she went through alone with her little baby girl.
It is nice to know though, that having been reunited in later life both did have that happy ending.
Wednesday, 14 January 2009
- Read something - at the minute I am reading 'The Olivetti Chronicles' which is a collection of the articles written by the late, great John Peel. When you are older and wondering why your Mummy has such weird taste in music I will give you this book, and that one that went before it (Margrave of the Marshes) and it may go some way to helping you out!
- Sit on the settee, with my feet up and put on hand cream after hand cream after hand cream. Because I am in and out of water all day, with dishes and laundry, and changing nappies my hands are about 20 years older than the rest of my body right now. Daddy gave me a voucher for a deluxe manicure and hand massage as part of my Christmas present, and I am going for it next Saturday. In the meantime I am hoping that my hands will calm down before the rest of me catches up to the same age!!
- I straighten my hair! I go upstairs and heat up my straightners and give myself a 'do'! Normally I just blowdry in the morning, or go au naturelle - but lately au naturelle is a little too 'Tarzan, Lord of the Jungle.' I hope you do not grow up to have hair like mine - it is thin, but wavy - so it grows up and out - old lady bouffant stye, rather than long and lustrous. For that reason it stays short in an attempt to keep it tamed, but still develops it's own unique kinks and twists, especially if I am trying to make an effort to look nice and it is in an evil mood!
- Have a hot cup of tea. You have no idea how wonderful this is. To not have to get halfway down and realise that there is a funny looking top on my tea because it is going cold and grey. A hot cup of tea (and at the minute 2 or 3 Quality Street chocolates while we eat up the last of the Christmas goodies!) is a great way to spend 10 minutes!
- The crossword! If we still have the Belfast Telegraph paper from a Saturday night I will have yet another go at solving a bit more of the cryptic crossword. I have managed to complete it once - only ever once in my life - and I submitted it for the prize. But the odds aren't great of winning something like that, particularly if you only manage to do it once!
So when you are bigger, and wondering what on earth Mummy was doing while you were sleeping during the day, this is it. One of the above, or blogging!!
Tuesday, 13 January 2009
Monday, 12 January 2009
The rules were that I had to:-
1) Choose the 4th folder where you store your pictures on your computer.
2) Select the 4th picture in the folder.
3) Explain the picture.
4) Tag 4 people to do the same
The strange thing is, by utter coincidence, the photo in question is one of my wedding, and the second one of my wedding I have posted today, having not looked at them for many months. I'd been looking for wedding photos earlier for one which had my wedding cake in it (as per my last post!) and the following picture is the 4th one from that same folder!
This is a picture of me and my husband outside our church just after we got married. It is not by any means a picture I would have chosen to post; it is out of focus, and I am not smiling - but rules are rules, and this was the 4th one in the folder! You can see the lovely flowers though - these, like the cake, were inspired by the amazing colours in the little lizard. I am not a big fan of conventional so something a little more colourful was more in keeping with what we both wanted.
I am tagging the following people now to do the same if they would like to:-
CuteasPieCottage - the wonderful Lorri and her gorgeous blog;
Everyday Elegance - exuberant, organised, colourful, funny Sarah;
AkaWest - lovely Lisa, with cracking recipes as an added bonus;
Simplistic Treasures - dear Kelly, with her inspirational posts and faith!
If anyone is reading this blog, please do go and have a look at these other wonderful, inspirational, funny, warm and uplifting ladies sites. You will not regret it!
Sunday, 11 January 2009
Friday, 9 January 2009
Thursday, 8 January 2009
After your lunch you had half a mashed banana for pudding, and then after dinner this evening you had some chopped up pears and blueberries. Instead of blitzing the blueberries up over the pear I left them whole since you did such a great job with the orange, and you polished them all off. Another step on the road to regular food instead of baby mush!!
I am preparing myself for some funky nappies tomorrow!!
Sleep tight, my darling!!
Tuesday, 6 January 2009
There was quite a lot of of 'Dadadadada' to the music. The biggest challenge now is that as you know how to balance and stand up straight you are not content to sit on my knee. You were ok when the musical instruments appeared and were very happy to sit and bash your drum and sing along, but any attempt to get you to sit on the mat and clap hands was a non-runner! By the end of the 45 minutes though you were tiring out and a bit happier sitting down for 'This is the way the Babies ride...'
You still have no interest in trying to crawl - you'll sit quite happily on the floor at home, or in your chair if you have something to occupy you; and your favourite thing is sitting on someone's knee with a book. But given the choice you seem to prefer to stand up with someone supporting you under the arms. Everyone tells me we'll have our hands full when you are mobile, and something tells me from the twinkle in your eye they might be right!
Monday, 5 January 2009
Sunday, 4 January 2009
- I aspire to cook and eat in a more healthy way in 2009 and lose some of the weight that has been bugging me for longer than I care to remember. I want to be a Yummy Mummy, not a Tummy Mummy!
- I aspire to spend my freetime more creatively, and not let it get sucked away by the nonsense on the TV. I want to read, write and stitch more in 2009 and make the most of the evenings.
- I aspire to take some exercise. Any exercise is an improvement on the current situation - and since you love being out and about in your pram, my darling, there is no reason not to wrap you up like toast, put the raincover on and hit the road for a tootle about.
- I aspire to learn to bake (!!) so that when you are looking for treats I know what went into them as far as I can. There will always be snacks and things I will not be able to make, but there is no reason to not try to learn something new!
- I aspire to try to be more patient and tolerant when life does not go how I planned, and to learn to breathe deeply and accept the changes that happen along the way.
- I aspire to try to understand why my faith is so challenged at the moment, and why I feel so detached from something which has been such a key part of my life for as long as I can remember.
- I aspire to be the best wife and mother I can be to my Darling daughter, and my beloved husband.
I am sure there are other things that will come to me over the next few weeks. I seem to have a very long 'to-do' list this January - so perhaps as things calm down I will revisit this my darling and update you on how things have progressed. All my love x x
Saturday, 3 January 2009
Our wreath was an unexpected gift from J next door, which she brought round for us after I admired the one she had hung up. I have been so lucky to have such a wonderful neighbour - we have only known each other a short while, and since I don't come from this part of the country I didn't know many people. J has become one of those lovely unexpected friends you make when you are older, and making friends can get harder as we grow older and more cynical about peoples intentions. She even overlooks the fact that I cannot bake to save my life and we have shop bought biscuits when she pops in for coffee with her 2 little girls. This is despite her managing to bake the most incredible cakes and pastries - she never judges or makes me feel bad about it.
You have had another busy day!! We went to Newry today to get you the next size of car-seat as you are too long in the leg for your existing one to be comfortable. This new one is front facing and much higher up, so not only can you see much more out of the window you can also see us in the front of the car. It was a complete revelation to you! You seemed stunned by the new world view as we drove home from the shop. And compared to how you were in your old car-seat you look so tiny in this new, 'big-girl' version! We are also packing up your baby recliner as your legs hang over the edge of that, and you would much rather be wriggling about in your Bumbo chair! When you are sitting there with your serious wee 'thinking face' on you look so like your Dear Granny Hannah - who died before you were born, but not before she knew you were on the way!
You have really got the hang of 'Dada' now, and have been practicing most of the day. I need to get you started on Mama now - you are a fast learner, sweetie-pie!! And when you have finished your dinner and we tell you 'All done' you hold your wee hands out to the sides and shrug your shoulders and say 'Aw Daw'. Every day is something new and amazing from you - you are an incredible ray of sunshine for everyone who knows you.
Tomorrow I am going to put my 2009 Aspirations into a post for you - at the minute my brain is a little tired and addled to concentrate, but I am treating Monday 5th as my starting point for the small things I want to change - hopefully to enrich all our loves, and make 2009 our best year ever as a wee family. Sweet dreams little darling x x
Friday, 2 January 2009
I so love this this idea - it gives me a great chance to tell my little girl things about me and ours lives that I might not otherwise think of putting down for her. And I love reading everyone elses Show & Tells - they are inspirational, funny, interesting and a great thing to read with a cup of tea!
My Show & Tell is a perhaps a strange one - it is my collection of blank, unused notebooks. I have to hold my hands up and say, 'I confess, I have a problem.' That problem is I cannot stop myself buying lovely notebooks, journals and jotters, and being determined to use them for something great when I get them home. And then I decide they are too good to spoil with random jottings - and I'll keep them safe for something special when the inspiration takes me. And then I don't use them for anything for fear of spoiling them, since they look so pretty and pristine. My husband thinks it is slightly insane (and also very funny, and much less expensive than shoes and handbags, so he doesn't interfere with my addiction!) The photo I am showing is only a small selection of the total - the collection is actually much more out of control than the picture suggests!!
It all sounds rather sad in a way, but strangely I have always loved my collection of unused notepads because they hold so much potential. They almost speak to me of what could be in them in the future - they are just waiting to be filled with ideas and recipes and quotes and poems and verses and all sorts of wonderful things. This year however I am determined to realise some of that potential - whatever that happens to be. I am going to start using one of them for things as they strike me - my darling husband for one will be glad to see them starting to be used; a real sign that I am starting to embrace life, enjoy the amazing things around me, and take a chance on the fact that while I might not produce anything as beautiful or inspirational as the covers of my notebooks, what ends up being inside will say more about me than leaving them empty!
Thursday, 1 January 2009
I started a list of books I would love to get around to reading in 2009 on my blog so that it would remind me every time I logged in that I could be reading a book instead of other peoples blogs - but aren't they the same thing??
Two books I have owned for a number of years (shamefully too many to admit....) and always been too daunted by their size to start (because something was always coming down the tracks that would get in the way...) are the Gormenghast Trilogy (Mervyn Peake) and A Suitable Boy (Vikram Seth) Perhaps this is the year that one or both of those books finds their way into my handbag. That would be very pleasing.
I should also read more historical books - to get a better understanding of the past that has brought me to where I am today - but I think sometimes reading historical books is tinged with a sadness for what has been lost rather than what could be coming!
Whatever I read will be shoe-horned into those few hours my darling daughter is asleep and I am not, and the endless visits to The Wheels of the Bus - which I suspect will be what I actually end up reading in 2009.