Baby Kay

Well, in case anyone else stumbles across this blog I suppose I should really start and post some other things than random greetings to myself. I will post them for my little girl - Baby Kay - since I haven't gotten organised enough to get a baby record book (which I would probably have forgotten to write in had I had the time in all the post-baby chaos....) This will do as a record for a little while for her as I seem to have some time in the evenings when she is in bed and it will stop me spending money I shouldn't on Amazon!

You are 38 weeks old now darling Baby Kay - and for months I haven't been able to remember what life felt like before you arrived. I remember what it looked like, and the things I did, and places I went to - all the tangible things that apply to everyone else. But the things that made my life my own - that are specific to me - I can't remember what they felt like. You are the reference point in my life for everything I feel. I imagine this will pass when you are bigger and more independent - but at the moment your good days are my good days, your bad nights sleep are my bad nights sleep - everything is tied into you and your wee world.

And it is the most wonderful, incredible, frightening, amazing, special feeling in the world for me. I may have waited 37 years for you - but I am thankful every day I wake up that you are in my life, and I love you more than I can ever tell you my darling.