Tuesday, 30 December 2008
It is so funny to see you with another little baby. Baby A is 7 weeks older than you and racing about on his knees like a tiny steam train. You on the other hand were quite content to sit up on knees or on the floor watching him and sizing him up. You are much more vocal than he is (maybe that's a girl thing!!) and spent most of the afternoon babbling to anyone who would talk to you, or barging A with a growl when he tried to pull himself up on the furniture. You also managed to get a good handful of his hair on more than one occasion, which he took in a very gentlemanly fashion for someone of only 10 months!!
I can see however we might have some issues with 'sharing' in the coming months - I don't want to be THAT mother, who people dread coming to Mother and Baby groups because their teeny weeny can bear wrestle any toy from any child! You are too sweet by half for that I know, but when you do that growl and drop your eyebrows to let me know you are cross then even I am not sure I would mess with you!!!
Monday, 29 December 2008
Today I have been starting to look forward to 2009. I am a strange fish sometimes - Daddy says it can summed up on the way I view the change of the year. Most people call it New Year's Eve, to represent a night before something happens, and new beginnings - whereas I have always called it Old Year's Night, suggesting looking backwards, and the end of something. This year I am making a conscious effort to call it New Year's Eve - as I am so looking forward to next year and all it may bring our little family. I have been batch cooking for you for the freezer - little Tommy Tippee cups of Neopolitana pasta - and I'll do the same every day this week. You are getting bored with my current offerings and we need to up the stakes as you start to realise that you can exercise your rights and refuse what you don't want to eat! You just turn your little face to the side and close your eyes as much as to say 'If I can't see it Mummy I don't have to eat it!' I have a raft of new recipes to try to tempt you, so hopefully we will hit on some good ones in there!
I have also prepared my 2009 diary, with the important dates ahead - a job I have always loved, and which is now even more poignant as I add your birthday, and all the other 2008 babies to it. I have a gorgeous recipe journal to start in 2009 - one of my new objectives (not resolutions!!) is to learn to bake and to use the economic downturn to focus on adding value to our family as a home-maker. I have found a gorgeous site (Mennonite Girls Can Cook) and I am all set to go with some beautiful recipes. Nanny is going to lend me her Kenwood Chef and we will be all set!
And I have cleared out my handbag of all the toot, old receipts, lip balms, old tissues, crumbs and rubbish. Daddy bought me a lovely new bag for Christmas and now I have one which will easily hold a Tippee cup, a few baby essentials, and not look like I am carting everything I own around with me!! We will look quite a stylish pair this year when we go to Jo Jingles!!
Before the end of the week I will have decided on my objectives for the coming year, but in the meantime I am enjoying looking forward and letting go of the things that hold me back. I read somewhere recently (and I wish I could remember where) that we should never let the odds stand in the way of us doing what we want to do, and believing we will succeed. And it is that thought that I will be carrying into 2009 for myself, and for you my darling Baby girl x x
Saturday, 27 December 2008
1. I must make sure I have made a difference before I die.
2. You can't stop growing older, so enjoy every moment you have.
3. I wish I never had to buy shop-made cakes or buns again.
4. Becoming a mother has helped me change my life.
5. I know the song Ladybugs Picnic by heart.
6. If I weren't so afraid, I would stop worrying about going back to work and just write the damn book.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to an early night with my girl, tomorrow my plans include a walk in the forest to feed the ducks and Sunday, I want to enjoy going to bed knowing that Daddy doesn't have to get up for work on Monday morning!
Good night my darling x
You are happily snoozing away upstairs We have been blessed with a run of good nights sleep over the last week - I think it may be the excitement of people in the house, or the fact that we have been buzzing around busily for days - but whatever it is you are sleeping really well at night, taking your little naps during the day very easily, feeding very well and are generally just so happy and contented. Daddy is off work for the next week which is wonderful - the last time we had so much time together as a family was when you were born and he was off on paternity leave. The weather at the minute is cold, but bright, so tomorrow we hope to get you wrapped up in your winter woolies and into the pram for a walk to Gosford Forest - maybe to feed the birds! I hope it stays dry and bright, and I hope that tonight is another good night for all of us!
Friday, 26 December 2008
Tuesday, 23 December 2008
Sunday, 21 December 2008
Saturday, 20 December 2008
I was talking about it with Auntie K this evening, who is over for a few days with Baby E and Baby S - and we agreed that for every 'turnip' night you little babies have, you also throw in a little 'peach' every now and then. And even when it is the odd turnip, I wouldn't trade for one minute sitting with you in the nursery on Tuesday night in the half-light, cuddling you and being with you, and trying to make you feel safe and special - just you and me. But another 'peach' tonight wouldn't go amiss if you feel like it!! x
Friday, 19 December 2008
I have picked this little decoration, which has pride of place on our tree this year. I had to take it off the tree to take the photo because the flash is doing all sorts of crazy things to the picture because of the tree lights and shiny decorations!
Why this is important to me is probably obvious - but I will explain anyway. Daddy and I waited so long for you, my darling, and finally we were blessed with you in March of this year. This is our first Christmas as a wee family with a baby to share our day. Daddy bought this decoration when he was in Canada with work in November, so like you it has come a long way to be part of our lives here in County Armagh. We are looking forward to this Christmas more than ever before and it is all thanks to the new joy you have brought to our lives.
Thursday, 18 December 2008
I have a little tradition every year - it goes back to the days when I lived and worked in London and used to come back to Carrickfergus for Christmas. I love mince pies, but have no self-discipline and would eat them from 1st November to 31st January if I didn't control myself. My tradition is that I am not allowed to have my 1st mince pie of the year before I hear the Chris Rea song 'Driving Home for Christmas' on the radio - because it always reminds me of coming home for Christmas and knowing that Christmas is here at last.
Your Daddy will be 'Flying home for Christmas' tomorrow afternoon - he has been away in Barcelona with work. When you are bigger we will take you there - it is the city of dreams and I hope you grow to love it as much as we do. It is the place your Daddy first took me away for the weekend to. He held my hand in the park in the shade of La Sagrada Familia and told me he loved me for the first time. There is a little play area there with swings and a slide, and we will take you there for sure when we go.
Before he went away I was in the kitchen washing up after dinner, and I heard Daddy playing 'Driving Home for Christmas' on his laptop - and he had even bought me some mince pies so I could listen to the song and start my Christmas celebrations. That is the kind of amazing, thoughtful man your Daddy is. And tomorrow we will begin the run up to your first Christmas together as a wee family - and I can't wait my love.
Sweet dreams my darling Baby Kay x x x
Tuesday, 16 December 2008
Here are 7 things I am thankful for:-
- You - my darling little girl - and that you are happy and healthy;
- Your Daddy - my best friend, my soul-mate - and the kind of man that I hope you will grow up to marry someday too.
- Right now in our lives everyone is healthy and life is good - this has been a year of wonderful babies - you, Baby M, Baby E - a year of additions, rather than last year which was a year of losses.
- Having wonderful friends - old ones like Jude and Kate B - but also new ones, like the lovely Joanne next door to us. When you get past 35 sometimes it seems like it is harder to make new friends, but other times someone crosses your path and it's like you are meant to be there for each other going forward. I hope you are blessed with the kind of friends that your Mummy has been lucky enough to have in her life.
- I am thankful that because of your wonderful Daddy I do not have to go back to work just yet, and that I get to spend every day with you. I am there in the mornings, I get to feed you during the day, read to you, wriggle on the floor with you, see your smiles and listen to your adorable laughs when you get the giggles. I am not missing this unique time with you; time I would never have again and which it so precious for me.
- Our wonderful, warm, safe home - where I feel settled and content, and am in a place where I feel like I could be for a very long time (DV...)
- Finally I am thankful to have the freedom to be who I want to be, to read the books that interest and challenge me, to say what I think and have my beliefs honoured and respected, to not live in fear and to be able to close my eyes at night and feel that I am blessed.
I could go on and on here - but I will leave it at those 7 things. At times like this when the economy is in trouble, and the weather is cold, and the evenings draw in early it can be so easy to forget the things in our lives that are good.
I hope you grow up to be an optimist like your Daddy - and that your glass is always half-full my darling.
Monday, 15 December 2008
Sunday, 14 December 2008
Friday, 12 December 2008
- Every night from I stopped nursing you, and when he is not away with work, Daddy gives you your last feed at night upstairs in the rocking chair in your nursery. When he puts you down to sleep he always tells you he'll be back in a wee bit to make sure you are ok, and he always does. Sometimes you are already asleep, but some nights it is as if you were waiting on him so as not to disappoint him - and you give him a wonderful tired, happy smile and then snuggle your face into Moo and go to sleep.
- Your Daddy takes you swimming every Saturday morning and you love it! You pootle about in the pool with the other Mummy's, Daddy's and babies and you are not remotely phased when you do swimming under water or get splashed. You are a real little waterbaby already!
- Daddy reads to you every night before you go for your bath - your favourite book is 'That's not my penguin' and you know to turn the pages and look for the little bit of fabric on the page to feel. You are so clever, my darling.
- I have never seen a little face light up the way your face does when Daddy gets home from work - you are so full of love and happiness, and it is the highlight of both your days when you see each other.
He is always so kind and patient and loving with you; he walked the floor with you when you were born and we were still learning how to settle you; he takes you up to see the chickens and the calves at Granda's farm; he explains to you the results on the football on Match of the Day. You are his princess and he is already your hero.
Wednesday, 10 December 2008
Tuesday, 9 December 2008
You are 38 weeks old now darling Baby Kay - and for months I haven't been able to remember what life felt like before you arrived. I remember what it looked like, and the things I did, and places I went to - all the tangible things that apply to everyone else. But the things that made my life my own - that are specific to me - I can't remember what they felt like. You are the reference point in my life for everything I feel. I imagine this will pass when you are bigger and more independent - but at the moment your good days are my good days, your bad nights sleep are my bad nights sleep - everything is tied into you and your wee world.
And it is the most wonderful, incredible, frightening, amazing, special feeling in the world for me. I may have waited 37 years for you - but I am thankful every day I wake up that you are in my life, and I love you more than I can ever tell you my darling.